Well, I think my brew day dances are less offensive than that.
This morning I got up early to call around for help getting some medical supplies hubby needed. I am an idealist, he is a realist. I think because I have always opened my heart and hands to help people that need help, now I get to ask for help. Because it's just right now we need help. Things like a roof, medical supplies. Once help to keep the electricity on. I'm not asking for a diamond ring or a new car. Only things that I feel like we need. He says what is wrong with your head??? You are asking for charity!!! Aren't we already getting enough help????
I didn't spend all my life helping random strangers so that when I need help I can't ask for it. It's just right now we need help, I will pay it forward the rest of my life, if I can just get the help I need right now. Of all my life, it's maybe just the last year, and maybe one more year that we need help. Don't I have some kind of karma credit? I think I do. He says I am delusional to think like that. People have helped us enough, stop asking for more. All they can do is say no, but they are not saying no, they are saying, sure we'll help. You've done things for me, I appreciate it, they seem happy to help, I don't think I am being that much of a burden on them. If they can't help, they say no, I can't do it right now. Maybe I am the crazy one. But I didn't spend my life helping people so the day I need help I can't get it. Ying/yang, give/take, what goes around comes around, for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction, do unto others, what is so hard to believe in that? Hubby says it's idealism and I am delusional thinking the world works this way. And he thinks he is realistic, help yourself, no one will help us. Well, maybe he doesn't have much karma built up, but I know I have karma built up and I'm not asking for anything I don't need. Food, shelter, medical supplies, the essentials. I don't even care about having special foods that I like more than other foods, just something to eat.